I am so down. I feel that my body is a dragging peice of clay. I don't have any energy and I feel very suicidal. I don't want to tell anyone here that I have been this bad, but it is true. I take all them pills, but they are not working. I am crying as I type. When will this gloom escape me. I fear having another breakdown. My husband is in school so I have to maintain stability! Why do I have to be this way? Why! I am so confused and bitter. I feel like death has made it's way near me somehow. I feel the presense of evil. I hear them in my head speaking to me. I thought I was getting better, but I am not. This disease is a killer. What do I do, well, I am fixing to take the strongest pill to knock my ass out and hope for a better day tomorrow. When?
Darkness has taken over my soul,
I feel the haunt,
it eats away at my internal flesh,
feasting until I am worn thin,
I have lost ten pounds,
down to a skinny bone again from not being able to eat,
I am suffering,
Please somebody save me from this hell.
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Please don't kill youself. I am here for you when you want to talk and I know somewhat of what you are going through. I would miss talking to you very much if you would do something like that and I am sure your children would miss you as well... I know that there are people who care. As for pills, they don't help everyone including me. If they help you then by all means... I am glad to see you getting your thoughts written down instead of holding them in.
Jenni, I'm Here for u...
Pills will not help you.
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