Today, is a great day.
I am hoping for the best, though I have to wait for my Methlyn to be prescribed, all of the other medications are doing me well. I decided to write a poem about this disorder. I hope you enjoy.

Scars left upon my skin,
From the razors that tilted in,
My insides devoured pills,
To subside the insanity thrills,
I awoke everyday,
With a new face,
Who would I be today?

Veins melted with ache,
venom left from the bitter snake,
attacks that ate up my flesh,
until the bones screamed the rest,
I sit here alone,
though a thousand souls surround my home,
I am alone.

I try to scream my pain,
but no sound will emerge,
dragons whisper in my ear,
the future of the unknown,
I see the past,
I feel the future,
I am lost in the present.

I feel time has left me standing on the edge,
wondering if I just should leap,
then Laturus spoke to my senses,
and my wings folded inward.

I am grounded,
solid as stone,
for I have found my heart,
a new inspirational home.

Love has lifted me,
Change has become my mystery,
I live for today,
and breath in the air that fills me,
I long for her to come back to me,
I linger the taste of her lips,
once again,
but never will return,
for I am captivated with this echo,
of songs that make me remember,
she will always be in my soul,
my spirit, for she was my true love,
my heart beats for her,
secretly, I must live the life wanted by others,
I would be selfish to not.

So, I live each day like the last,
I hold my water in an empty glass,
refreshen my mind and let it be,
that one day she could be with me.

Without the pain of others thoughts,
that baracade me in this hell,
I live a lie,
but will never tell.

If you read this then you shall surly know,
that I am nothing ordinary that glows,
I am worth little,
I am but a seed in this world,
growing to learn all that I can,
lingering for wisdom,
that seems to be right in front of me.

Why can I not see ?
Why can I not hear?
Why can I only feel?

I have found an escape,
writing, singing, and drawing are my fates.
I love the harmony of a guitar,
wish that I could play one.

So someone just save me from myself.